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Thunder in My Arms

by Lissa Schneckenburger

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1.
Look Away 03:12
Look Away by Lissa Schneckenburger On that afternoon the sun was in the sky It made little sparkling diamonds in the snow I had a heavy fist of fear that gripped my stomach And it wouldn’t let me go I could see the lady’s breath in little clouds in the air She lead me up the walk and rang the bell That was the day the fist of fear became an animal And broke out of it’s shell CH I know, you can not fool me Nobody wants me And I don’t want you anyhow I know, you’ll never see me Nobody sees me Look away. I am a stranger in a house that’s full of strangers I am afraid to turn the lights off in the night And they say “child don’t you worry” but if you had known what I have known Then you would worry Nothing they give me ever tastes right And their house just doesn’t smell like home to me And I know that where I came from didn’t feel good but then nothing feels good Maybe it is me I am an animal, my name is fear My teeth are anger, my eyes severe I am power, I will destroy So do not look at me like I am just a little boy And the fire that burns in me will devour me until I fade away So look away There was a time in summer I went fishing at the creek My grandma showed me how to cast a line We sat together on the bank and let our bare feet dangle Everything was fine And now they want to take me out to see the game They buy me little presents all the time They say next summer we’ll go fishing, we’ll have fun But all I want to do is cry
2.
On My Own 03:46
On My Own by Lissa Schneckenburger I used to have a father once He doesn’t live like me He’s sitting back where he started Simple life, simple hearted He doesn’t live like me, he is primitive And my mother she stopped coming round She doesn’t love like me Always yelling and leaving Pushing and pleading She doesn’t love like me, she is venomous CH But I have the sky, I have the sky And I have the earth, I have the earth And I have tonight, I have tonight And I have this life, I have life I used to have a sister once She doesn’t look like me You would never know it Her face doesn’t show it She doesn’t look like me, she is beautiful I never liked my face I am a bastard child Purely mean on the inside Blackened, dissatisfied I’m nothing but a bastard child, I’m not beautiful CH In the evening in the summer time All the sky is an open wound A car door slams, voices in the distance I breath beneath the stars My heart beats, on it’s own On my own
3.
Since the Day We Met, by Lissa Schneckenburger You can run away, I love you You can cry all day, I love you You can kick and scream and shout, Turn your insides inside out, and I love you When the night is long, with demons coming on I can help you find your peace, I will sing you back to sleep CH Everybody makes mistakes and We get up and try again But make no mistake, you were no mistake I’ve loved you since the day we met You can change your name, or you can stay the same You can be the one you are, I never will be far You can deviate, stay out way too late When you’re a rebel with a fight, I’m your anchor in the night CH When my footsteps slow, and you are up and grown Someday when my hair is grey, you will hold my hand and say
4.
The 11th Labor of Hercules, by Schneckenburger/ Nethercott I’ve traveled through the wasteland, slain the hydra and the boar. For atonement I have labored and I’m bound to labor more But what turn of fate confronts me now this being by my side I’ll embrace him as he changes into beasts and brutes and dangers I pray I’ll make it out alive oh out alive You were mothered by the Adriatic Sea every squall, every storm, troubled through your body Now you shake and you twist into talon, fang, and fist. Do you know what it is to be held the way I hold you now? First you become a mighty whale then you become a shark as all the violence you’ve endured turns thunder in my arms Oh you change into a lion, a viper, and a ram but beneath you’re just a child with your hair grown long and wild I’ll care for you the best I can oh best I can
5.
I Need Us Together by Lissa Schneckenburger I can calm my body when I sit beside you I can calm my body and do like you do I can calm my body when your body’s calm Woah, two birds on a wire CH I feel fine when you feel fine I feel strong when you feel strong I feel love when you feel love I need us together, to keep it together I can slow my heart when I sit beside you I can slow my heart and do like you do I can slow my heart when your heart beats slow Woah, two birds fly side by side CH Sometimes the colors and sights and sounds they spin around They wind me up and I can’t wind down The people and faces and noises and places All melting together cloud my sight I need you to help me feel right
6.
Feel Better 04:55
Feel Better by Lissa Schneckenburger When I am black and blue, and twisted inside When I am wretched and need a place to hide I creep into a closet that is dark and cool and quiet I lie still in the darkness and I breath CH Till I feel better, till I feel better When I am pushed and shoved and hurt in this place When I blink back the tears and want to hide my face I need the solace of a womb I seal myself inside a tomb I sink under a blanket and I breath CH When I am troubled by the memories I keep When the newsreel in my mind will not let me sleep I think of those that I have lost, the details of my sins Until I gather up my mind and breath CH breath in, breath out
7.
They Sent Me a Picture, by Schneckenburger/ Erelli They sent me a picture of my little girl the other day She was so beautiful, she’d grown so tall She was laughing with her hair brushed from her eyes She looked right at the camera but she didn’t see me Her smile went straight through me but she didn’t see me CH I’m no good to you, oh honey I’m no good to me, you know that I’m no good to anyone at all I’ll never be around The day that she was born the heat felt heavy and my body low The air was steeped with sweet honeysuckle I held on to the porch railing in the sun Counting contractions waiting for my little one Way back when I thought that she would be my little one CH They say if you feel sad and low you get to acting bad, I know That if it’s true then I have plumbed the depths I can watch myself from far away outside It wasn’t me that did it, it was someone else I’d never stoop so very low it must be someone else CH And so I tuck her photo back behind the books up on the shelf Her smile haunts me as I leave the room I move into the kitchen looking for a place to hide The light above the sink is glaring at me in the night I turn my face away and I sink slowly in the night
8.
I’ll Stick Around by Lissa Schneckenburger When my mother left me it was for my own good She knew my father’d raise me just like a father should A father should, a father should In the nights that followed I held on to what I could I wrapped her ghost around me just like a mother would A mother would, a mother would I see her from time to time Peaking out from my son’s eyes I stick around In the dead of summer with the twilight coming on The noise of TV mixing with the thumping of my heart Thump of my heart, thump of my heart The heat is suffocating I am standing at the sink I hear my father calling to bring another drink Another drink, another drink I see him from time to time He hides in my daughter’s smile I stick around All is dark now, angels sleep Breathing quiet memories creep Kiss them softly on the face “I will be here when you wake, I will be here when you wake”
9.
Blow Out The Candles, by Schneckenburger/ March You flew in on a plane from Korea, to Anchorage, to me You wore pink and blue elephants, and then you reached out your hands You left the airport in my arms, snow in the air That’s the day, that is the way I brought you home I always knew where I came from, I never had any doubts We celebrated my coming day with little presents and songs You’d say “happy adoption Sadie, blow out the candles for another year” Remember us out on the water in a boat when the wind came up so fast and fierce I looked at you my little daughter your resolve shone in your eyes, hands on the oars And even though you were so small we rowed we pulled with all our might right back to shore That’s the day that is the way you make me proud You told me once that I had a twin, she didn’t live very long We were together in the orphanage, she never had a home You said “Sadie, she’s gone now sweetheart, blow out the candles for another year” All the things you used to say that made me smile and that brightened up my day I think of all your little ways now that you’re grown and moved away I think of you And no matter where you are no matter how near or how far you are Every day this is the way that I love you I think of the Alaskan sky in winter, I think of the northern lights My arm around you, love wrapping us like a blanket in the night I think of you, daughter, I think of gratitude I think of the Alaskan sky in winter, I think if you
10.
When My Baby Cries by Lissa Schneckenburger When my baby cries, I want to hold him, when my baby cries (2x) When my baby cries, oooh, tears are in his eyes When my baby cries I’m going to pick him up When my baby’s sad, I want to sooth him, when my baby’s sad (2x) When my baby’s sad, oooh, you know it feels so bad When my baby’s sad I’m going to hold him close When my baby smiles, the sun is shining, when my baby smiles (2x) When my baby smiles oooh, I know he is my child When my baby smiles I give him all my love When my baby laughs, my world is turning When my baby laughs, my river’s rolling When my baby laughs, oooh, I know the joy we have When my baby laughs I go to hug him tight, I give him all my love, I’ll never let him go

about

Thunder in my Arms is Lissa’s first release of all original music, and is a song cycle about attachment, parenting and trauma. After a decades-long career performing as a traditional fiddler and ballad singer, Schneckenburger’s personal experience as a foster and adoptive parent sparked her drive to write songs around the themes of families and resiliency. Sung from a myriad of viewpoints, Thunder in my Arms can be at times brazen and innocent, resilient and triumphant, softly confessional and sweetly comforting.

Lissa says, “At a certain point I noticed that everyone we turned to for help with parenting was talking about the same thing: finding compassion, synchronicity, and understanding. In my attempts to be a better parent I found plenty of invaluable books and workshops that got that point across, but no songs! Music has this magical way of communicating emotion almost instantly, and allows human beings to synchronize with each other on so many levels. I set out to write songs that would resonate with other parents like myself. Songs about loneliness, exhaustion, beauty, abandonment, love, loss, and above all, hope.”

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released May 17, 2019

FEATURING: Lissa Schneckenburger (lead vocals, violin) Stefan Amidon (drums, harmony vocals) Ross Bellenoit (electric guitar) Zara Bode (harmony vocals) Corey DiMario (double bass) Natalie Haas (cello) Jefferson Hamer (acoustic guitar) Curtis Hasselbring (trombone) Cole Kamen-Green (trumpet) Ryan McKasson (viola) Emily Miller (harmony vocals) Alec Spiegelman (pump organ, woodwinds, saxophones, electric guitar) and Jed Wilson (piano)

All songs by Lissa Schneckenburger, except where noted
All arrangements by Schneckenburger/ Spiegelman
Produced by Lissa Schneckenburger and Alec Spiegelman
Recorded by by Alan Stockwell at Black Mountain Audio (Brattleboro, VT)
Additional recording at Frost Studios (Brattleboro, VT) by Lissa Schneckenburger, Arcadia Recording by Todd Hutchisen, and by Alec Spiegelman at The Chamber of Commerce (Brooklyn, NY)
Mixed by Robin MacMillan at Faraway Sound (Brooklyn, NY)
Mastered by Toby Mountain at Northeastern Digital (Southborough, MA)
Graphic design by Adam Agee
Photography by Corey DiMario

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Lissa Schneckenburger Brattleboro, Vermont

The traditional music of New England can be as warm and comforting as a winter fire or as potent and exhilarating as a summer thunderstorm. Fiddler, singer, and composer Lissa Schneckenburger is a master of both moods, a winsome, sweet-voiced singer who brings new life to old ballads and a skillful, dynamic fiddler who captures the driving rhythm and carefree joy of dance tunes old and new. ... more

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